Changes

Mom has been wandering a lot more than usual. She has lost most of her bladder control. So cleaning the carpets is daily. I don't think this will change. She is becoming more confused when trying to converse with others. I have found their can not be any distractions when trying to talk to her or her mind wanders. She no longer reads or writes. She can not sign her name anymore. She looks the same so it is hard to try and adjust to what is going on in her mind. She is being robbed of her life past and present. But, she still has that kind spirit that makes her my mom.

Mom ohh mom

Mom was up a lot last night. She was worried and could not tell me why. Except to say " I told him to wait for me and he didn't". She always looks so lost when she is like that. I wish with all the leaps and bounds they medically have made with ALZ. They could do something for her. It is hard to watch her shuffle around,as she is not sure where she is going. She continues to go to daycare which is good for her but, she does not have as much fun as she used to. But, she is eating better now that they are only giving her one food item at a time. I wish I could lift her spirits some how.

Ageing

I don't know what drives me crazier. The Social Security agency, The council on ageing or the 3 doctor's office's. Or maybe medicare RX, So much red tape for so little services. I seem to go to meetings monthly. I expect it will slow down but, it still doesn't erase now. Mom's mood has'nt changed much. She got a phone call about a friend who is'nt doing well(health wise). She was unhappy the rest of the day. I guess that I have to tell her friends about (sunshine and roses only) when speaking to mom.

Difficult day

Today is a cloudy cold day. I know in the institutions a full moon changes the clients attitudes. But, does it do the same with the rain and cold? Mom is really confused today and agitated. She is complaining of being ignored and unloved. She refuses to stay dressed. She has taken everything out of her drawers and closet 3 times today. Only to deny doing it. I really feel overwhelmed. My daughter has stepped in and I have gone to hide in my room for awhile. It is so hard to see her like this when their is no way to redirect her or give her comfort. I know it will pass but, not today. Her confusion usually starts around 5pm. So I will wait and wonder about tonight. I am sorry to whine, Some times things eat at me. This blog has been a release. I will continue to hope tomorrow will bring sunshine.